movie starlet girlfriend
i’ve been badly fooled in the past
i was in love with a girl
who was basically like an actress
she played parts that interested her in life.
she constructed elaborate puzzles of identity for me to put together.
she had piles of movies and she’d pick one out for us to watch to tell me something. her face carried a hidden kind of pride about the way she could nudge the idea of things into my mind in this way. I think you would have needed to understand people better to have been able to love her without going crazy.
sometimes her movies had a character she had borrowed parts of herself from. you noticed that a girl in the movie held her head and smiled the same way. it was sort of unnerving if you want to know the truth. like my girlfriend was a movie star. but she wasn’t a movie star actually.
neither was i, but man did it hurt whenever i stopped getting scenes with her.
